03 MAR 2026

I’m still affected by the breakup, and seeing him interested in women who are the opposite of me reopens an old wound.
When I feel insecure, I start thinking that I’m dull or not enough compared to other women. Sometimes I catch myself believing that “all men” prefer someone outgoing, always smiling, super sexy and full of energy — and I don’t see myself like this. I see those women as gold and diamonds, and myself as silver and pearls. Even though both are beautiful in different ways, when I’m feeling low, it seems not good enough.
The end of a long relationship really shook my confidence and sense of self. I’m still rebuilding. I want to move forward. I want to see the beauty in being soft. I want to see beauty in being me.
I don’t want to feel jealous of or less than other women anymore. I know there are many kinds of beauty. I’m trying to like myself more without comparing myself to others. I’m doing my best to overcome this. It’s been an emotionally exhausting and non-linear process, but I hope that by the end of the year, I’ll be in a much better place. I want my spark back, without trying to be a sunshine.
I want to stay night, moon, silver, and pearls, and shine in my own way.

18 DEC 2025

Since my break up, I've been avoiding love songs, because they make me sad -- specially the ones he used to sing to me. But a few days ago, I listened to "Balada do amor inabalável" (Unshakable love ballad) and, somehow, it made me feel happy and comforted.
That's the kind of love I want to have: light, joyful, unshakable. A love that makes me want to live and dance, that resonates like this song.

15 JUN 2025

Hello, guys! I know it’s been a while since my last update, and the main reason is that I’m now sharing my laptop with my aunt. She needs it more than I do, so it’s basically hers now — and I’m okay with that. We’re planning to buy a PC for me in a few months, so wish me good luck.
The second reason is… my relationship of almost six years is over. “Little cloud” (nuvemzinha, in Portuguese) is a nickname he gave me. Even though we broke up on good terms, it’s never easy, so I needed a little time because of that too.
I’m going to keep the site’s name because it’s already known as this, and I don’t have a problem with it. Even before the breakup, I had already given it a new meaning: a safe and comfy space, just like a fluffy little cloud.
The internet and social media have become so “noisy,” and the indie web has been a refuge for me. I’m really happy that people like my website and feel good here, even though it’s simple and doesn’t have as much content as I’d like yet. I hope to be able to do more things soon.